Aug 27 2010

mereka merdeka

Today I walk pass by Merdeka Stadium by myself. I wasn’t sure why I do that in the first place -- probably it was just my random act of tingtong-ness which happen to me often through out my life.

Lucky it wasn’t the Tugu Negara -- coz it might be for something else -- :p

I parked my car somewhere nearby and stroll down sort of my memory lane without any solid direction where I’m heading too. From my childhood life helping my mum menoreh getah -- to my burger seller stint back in Uni --  to the managerial work I’m doing now.

Somehow, I’ve been feeling down lately for no reason at all.

To put the blame on the stress at work is so wrong -- coz that kind of stress is what I love the most. Yeah, I do nag non-stop on my Facebook -- but that sort of thing is norm to most of us -- FBs is the wailing wall of this era.

Then, I start to doubt my relationship with friends -- I do realise tho -- I’ve being fighting with a lot of people this past one year for a silly reason -- and some people do hate me to his guts bcoz of my behavior. Somehow I was just being myself most of the time. Sometimes our ego is just so big that we can’t see our true self behind those ego.

For more than 10 years in KL, friends in this big city always come and go -- so it wasn’t the reason.

A year ago, I was doing the same thing -- I do remember I was so tingtong I walked from Bukit Bintang to Cheras after work to clear my mind. I was having tough time at my old work place and I need a push in making a right decision for my career.

I’m glad after almost 2 hours walking along Jalan Davis -- Jalan Cochrane towards Jalan Loke Yew -- I start seeing people -- regular people who probably in the less fortunate situation than me -- who work day in and day out -- with very much less income and still going through their daily life at that hour.

Suddenly, I got an SMS from my housemate on my iPhone -- then it struck me -- I was holding an iPhone for god sake! That iPhone can be sold for a value at least a month of their income.

After that, I change my perception towards myself and I start seeing thing clearly. I change my job, my attitude -- sold my house at last and settled my bad debt.

Today, I do the same thing again -- it was the right move .

I shouldn’t complaint with what I’ve now -- I’ve career which allow me to travel -- eating at posh restaurant or mamak stalls at anytime I want -- shopping at fancy boutique or hypermarket from one shopping mall to another -- owning a things without seeing a price tag sometimes -- have friends who always be around no matter what happen -- good or bad.

What more do you want?

Somehow, I did saw something at Merdeka Stadium today.

*a man with handcuff inside the black maria.


Aug 22 2010

online thingy on malaysia airlines

Malaysia HospitalityI received this newsletter by Malaysia Airlines last week – they have tonne of new thing-y available online at malaysiaairlines.com

Last month, I went to Bali with them – I got a great bargain via their online deals channel – Get-the-Deal – which only cost me MYR300 something for return tickets – I booked it within one before one month of my travel. › Continue reading


Aug 15 2010

luving you takes time

In the beginning, I had it all but I let it slip away. I couldn’t see that I treated you wrong. Now I wander around feeling down and cold. I was trying to believe that you’re gone.

Love takes time to heal when you’re hurting so much. I couldn’t see that I was blind and letting you go. I can’t escape this pain inside me. Love takes time and I don’t want to be here alone.

I’m losing my mind from this hollow in my heart. Suddenly I’m so incomplete. Lord, I’m needing you now and tell me how to stop the rain of tears falling down endlessly. › Continue reading


Aug 5 2010

Indah – Bab 1

1st chapter of my book, INDAH. Happy reading, don’t forget to leave your comment.

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Hijau. Bergenang. Kelopak mata berkelipan.

Tanah lapang di kaki bukit, hijau dipenuhi rumput. Seri bau tropika kawasan berwangian harum. Titik hujan jatuh ke pipi. Berkerdip mata itu, kehijauan membasah alis.

Indah bangkit.

Deru angin sesejuk salju terjah ke muka. Berlari anak dia, menyusur denai berbatuan kecil. Gigian anak sungai berliku alur dituju. Angin bertiup perlahan mengalun panjang rambut di paras bahu. Berat titisan air hujan jarang di sana-sini mula memecah ketenangan.

Kesejukan gerimis di tengahari itu terasa pada bahu yang terdedah lebar. Indah suasana itu seindah nama.

Hujan tak semena berhenti begitu sahaja. Kalih dia mengadap ke langit. Biru memenuhi ruang. Sinar terik merobek damai. Penambah seri syurga duniawi itu. Kicauan beburung kedengaran dari pohon-pohon rendang berdekatan.

Indah memelodi langkahnya, kembali. Segar bebunga lalang berterbangan tiada haluan ditiup angin. Terpa ke muka bersilihan ganti, putih berdebu menyentuh wajah. › Continue reading


Jul 18 2010

Dalilah Tamrin – amankanlah kepedihan ini

I solidify my faith in every prostration
I extend a prayer, sending voices of my heart
What may come is like a dark cloudy sky
I am alone in my darkest night

The end of the road is where I am leading
No way I can run away from it
Before I stop breathing please end this pain
Even though I am in pain waiting

I am helpless but I brace it through
I reach out to hope I am chosen
My return is to you Lord
Let the trembling sadness be vanished

Worry is thrown away and light of serenity glows

Kembaliku PadaMu Ilahi › Continue reading


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