batinku menjerit namun tiada suara
I would remember running away from my mum during Maghrib time with her loud shrinking voice chasing me to go upstair to take shower after playing a ‘lempar koo‘ game with my cousin under the machang tree next to grandma place.
And I would go to a perigi to take a naked buffalo shower surround by the bamboo wall and very rustic zink door.
December like this, a wind would shake the rubber tree next to the house and you can here the POP sound from the ‘buah getah‘ drop on the ground; and the huge rumpun bamboo behind the house scratching between each other and the sound I always thought a ‘hantu kopek lanjut‘ laughing – like what mum said to scared me off;
Then, I would hear my sister playing this song in her room and my mum would bang on the door.
“Gharik ni, Yah! Tubik lah nyo, goren ike…” and she would slow it down the volume but I would still hear it from the hole everywhere on the wall.
“batinku menjerit namun tiada suara…”
I miss my old time… are we insane to just let our heart falling for someone?
Ku terpegun di jendela bila hujan gerimis senja
Tak ku lihat di hadapan ku diri ku dalam lamunan
Tiada lain yang ku bayangkan hanyalah peristiwa itu
Dosa-dosa yang ku lakukan tetap mengganggu batin
Tanya pada diri apakah ini semua cobaan belaka
Kesal ku tak berakhir menduga keyakinan ku kepadanya
Batin ku menjerit namun tiada suara
Aku cuba menyatukan semua harapan yang berkecai
Tuhan ku bimbingkanlah diri ku agar kesal ku hilang
Gerimis sungguh mencengkam tiada dapat ku tahan lagi
Sungguh-sungguh tak ku menduka hingga jadi begini
December 17th, 2008 at 12:39 pm
nape sentimental je lately? hehe ^^
ashie´s last thought..Wayang itu Hantu o Aku Hantu Wayang??
December 17th, 2008 at 12:46 pm
ashie, getting older… getting older…
Finishing my books; I need to get into the LOVE feels, if not I couldn’t understand how a man is craving for a love from his love one; It’s to overwhelming…
December 17th, 2008 at 1:40 pm
owwuuhh..mesti tgah writer block nie..if u need the WAR mood xsemestinya kena pergi perang, so if u need the LOVE feeling, pe lagi kena tengok byk cter romance ler jwpnye..agak2 dpt x feeling tu? hmm..try movie Cinderella yg Drew Barrymore jd heroin tu. Romantis giler! (^^)
ashie´s last thought..Wayang itu Hantu o Aku Hantu Wayang??
December 17th, 2008 at 1:50 pm
Ashie, susah jugak tu sebab I want to make it authentic to traditional Malay kampung love;
December 17th, 2008 at 3:02 pm
it’s good to have the memories back..
especially the sweet ones…
wish to be kid again, huh?
Putubambu´s last thought..Dear Frens..
December 17th, 2008 at 3:45 pm
Kak Putu, kiter memang masih kanak2 lagi dalam fikiran… sweet memories was triggered by some bad memories
December 18th, 2008 at 6:36 pm
Kja masih ingat lagi time lagu ni kuar.. Hmm.. Wahaza, merindu zaman kanak2 ni perkara normal.. Even kja, pd umur ini pun masih lagi terkenang dan mengenang zaman tu.. Cuma zaman kanak2 dan remaja kja, sebenarnya kalau org lain, mungkin akan cuba seboleh mungkin utk padamkan drp ingatan….
kak ja´s last thought..Jumpa Zuer Plak
December 18th, 2008 at 10:24 pm
Kak Ja; someone was asking about my kids story; some are painful and some are so precious… sometimes we forgot how deep and complex is our life and trying to make him/her understand, every man comes with their own baggage..
December 19th, 2008 at 7:06 am
and i’m missing my family!! gosh..
and wahaza..we r definitely not insane to let our heart falling into someone..its just nature of love
inah´s last thought..Day 126 : Usrati
December 19th, 2008 at 8:55 am
bro – i dun think its insane to fall for others. dtas the beautiful part of life, indeed.
shahe´s last thought..first impression – yeah!
December 22nd, 2008 at 10:29 am
Inah, yeah… I kind of miss my family lately but you know I’m such a stubborn son!
December 22nd, 2008 at 10:30 am
Shahe, it’s beautiful but hurting some how…