After 3 days, my entire professionalism kind of tired and some how I find myself stuck in a situation when people who manages teachers make me sick to my stomach.

I think when you’re conducting a training to a teachers, you always put your wise word carefully so you would not disrespect them.

My first session runs smoothly for entire 3 days so I thought the next session would be the same.

After closing the first session, we (the trainers) received an SMS from Nida telling about a complaint about the hamper.

According to some people (who managing teachers), some how there is teachers who complaint about the worth of the hamper – kind of to cheap!

I’m still puzzle about the complaint does the complaint really comes from who? Teachers or them? None of my teachers on the previous session voice its out, they were very happy and shock to get those thing.

The story behind it; Since the training conducted during Ramadhan times – a normal daily food budget – to be provided by contractor have to converted into something else, it’s RM15 a day per teachers (RM45 in total).

This budget was a token nothing much than an allowance.

I didn’t know the head and the tail about the arrangement so I would not know what’s the issues of those arrangement.

However, the issues was brought up on the first day on my second session and it’s spoiling the teachers behavior up to the roof.

As a trainers, this kind of administration conflict make the objectives of the training derail from its original track and it’s surely a possible coalition will happen up ahead.

By mid morning on day 4 which after a visit by one kej, thing get nasty and I had one question playing on my mind unanswered, do I deserves to be disrespectful?

On my first session, a JPN representative do comes to my session – since during TTT – we’ve been brief about paperwork so we’ve been equip with necessary paperwork – such as attendance of the teachers – so we didn’t expect, we’ve to do theirs (JPN) paperwork too on my previous session;

So my gut feeling said – with the system – provided by JrJ – that was our proof of works!

But according to the kej, that would not be enough!

First, she storm in to my training session without properly introduce herself, and she starts to disturb my facilitator at the back – and teachers who concentrating on me – started to realises something fishy.

Suddenly without an ‘Excuse Me’ – she comes forward in between a few teachers – asking me – in a tone – an English slang – which really annoy me;

“Where is your first session attendance?” I showed her my previous session attendance list.

“No! Not that one. The one from JPN, which you supposedly to hand out to teachers?”  - side note, that attendance sheet not even have a JPN name on it.

I showed her the empty sheet – “The previous guy said the one I show you would be enough”

With her sendat face she said – “How do I want paid you if you not done your jobs properly?”

B*tch! – My mouth shout without a voice – instead I said – “That not my jobs, it’s your jobs to make sure thing get properly documented”  - and all teachers looking at my face since my tone change into a slut in the back ally.

She retreat! I think that was a big blow to her – she thought nobody in this world would said that to her face; I heard she always make fuss in the school too – same like my situation now.

Suddenly she was on the phone calling all schools, which its teachers still missing from that class and the previous class.

By late noon – I had more and more teachers arriving! I said to myself, how to handle so many teachers in single session; and some more when you’ve force them to comes – surely their minds is not into the class!

And that was our first fight! Yes, our first fight!

After that she try again to mess out with me – I’m not sure does she want to proves that she is doing her jobs or she just like to find other people mistakes.

This times – she said – I’m a fierce person, a lot of teachers don’t like me – and I said – Yes, I’m scared! – with a scary fake face.

Then she ask teachers to get the courseware from the labs – I said I don’t want to take risk if anything missing from the school and ask her to take the responsibility instead – and she give an excuses to ask me to get the permission from the school – Of course, the schools said NO.

Huh!

And she continue, complaints about teachers getting tired if I didn’t follow the session schedule; I said everybody look happy and walking around discussing right now – so why need to follow the schedule rigidly! I know what I’m doing – I’m putting teachers as my best interest.

A little while after that – she said to my facilitator – we’ve to go back late depending to the last teachers comes – so I said to her – I don’t care – when I comes in the morning – if only 2 teachers comes, I’ll still continue with the training – I come here to train not to administrated teachers – I even didn’t know whose teachers comes – somehow she have all the list of the teachers –  so it’s her jobs to making sure everybody comes on time.

What a kej! By lunch break – she left – I think she can’t stand that she can’t bullied me; and she said she will come back on the day 6 to see my class presentation – I said straight to her face – I’m god damn good trainer! You don’t need to worry…

Somehow out of this, people will think this would be my personal vendetta towards her – I’m not against her – but dealing with teachers is your jobs – when in training like this – it’s my territory – so have a little respect – you can’t be a cow inside a tiger cage – you’ll get eaten!

Enough about her!

The day 4 does run smoothly after that;

This session we’ve a few teachers who really is just a beginner; to tell the truth – some of them not even had open a laptop before – so I’m very proud by end of the day, when they comes to me – and said – Now, I know what is a latch and where it’s located!

Teachers looking a files in her notebooks

Teachers are checking out on their notebooks specification

Me guiding one teachers about their files storage management

Teachers looking at their syllabus on the courseware topics

Teachers holding one of the courseware supplied to them

One group of teachers doing task based activities with the projector.

Teachers take time to get to know each others to share their experience especially about their Kelas Pemulihan issues.

Teachers looking at the courseware

Me with teachers have a little chit chat about their notebooks problem

Teachers looking at the courseware.

I breathe with some relief – teachers do really like me and they are on my side.